WAH!!!! yesterday was a day full of mishaps and crap....morning had to go for stupid NPCC kayaking.....missed the HSE selection exercise.....it was the biggest (BIGGEST)(BIGGEST) mistake of the day.....haish....people i knew went lorh....and i had to kena scolding by two people....for asking them to replace me....anyway the kayaking was just bloody stupid....lets relate.... i went there, saw the instructors. there were four main instructors. One was poser. One was a slutty bitch.One was a lame idiot. The last one treated us like Primary One kids. How immensely stupid. so we went along kayaking. the most stupid one was learning how to capsize a kayak. Deliberately. Quote: "You check the depth, then rock the boat, and overturn it." OOOOkay. Im sure that would be useful in time to come. right? Then i got so much darker. One level up....the contrast can be seen so clearly lorh.... wadeva...

Muahah.....in the end when i checked my handphone i saw some messages which got me FURIOUS....attituded all my squadmates and seniors and sirs and ma'ams....ate the fastest record i remembered....haha...just to see.....BRANDEN!!! wahaha....sigh then the proed people all crap lar....politically attacked me lorh...and JOSEPH SEAH SUCKS. he SUCKS. he can go eat crap....went ard telling people that xin ying (kong) is chio...wadeva.....then he started cocky-eyedly talking to me.....*murderous glare*

In the end shi wei has done his final draft of orientation OT... and i have also completed my sec one level day draft too.....whee...now left with meeting.....when? leave first lar...=P

Today was crap...morning went for soccer, then shi wei and i disucussed plans for today...included going out with some ny people....till now not confirmed...then the zai councillors all going for SLC party...what to do? so now stuck at home....cos i rejected going to my cousin's house.....haish...then on MSN had a small talk with daryl.....

its hard to accept such rejection. u broke me and then led me on. i dunno wad it is now that motivates me to search you out in the crowd. look you in your face. talk to you. accept your repeated rejection. get criticised for just holding on to this hope.

haish.....loads of people giving advice...practical and impractical. good and bad. easy and hard. i dunnoe....its a rain of advice beating on a window of my box. i dunnoe whether to open the window. or the keep all of it out. enough.....